Forgiveness

Sorry but to start with a moody post.

I feel that I'm a let down in some area of my life like friendship. First, I destroyed a 7 year friendship with my own hand. I deserve it , i guess (too busybody) . Right now, i have learn to keep it at heart even though i really wannna to know/care aboout it.

Now, another one, being destroyed by me again. Why cant you forgive me like i forgive you what you does to me for that incident ( I didnt mean anything but just hoping you you to forgive) ? Do you still rmb the promises you told me at playground? Was that suppose to be real or lie ? I really dont wanna to lose you. You know that I didnt does it on purpose, do you ? I admit it's my fault. I'm really sorry about it.

Does Ching Keng Sia doesnt meant to have best friends in life ?? Losing one by one, and looking them leaving one by one too , isnt an easy task ! Andandand I dont wish too. I suppose that I'm not a good friend afterall. Or is the GOD trying to tell me that no point having best friend as i dont deserve it.

In conclusion, I broke two bridge which left it having a broken that can be nvr be mend....

P.S. I hope everything will be as normal like last time.Forgive me ?